Learning from mistakes

Monday 9 January

Weight 194.5

This morning I spent a couple of hours reading through past journals that I have written and what became apparent and very sad, was that I have spent so much time writing weight loss goals and recording what I have eat. Despite this yearly journaling, my weight has gone up every year! So how do I stop making the same mistakes?

As I read through my journals, I identified that I eat when I am frustrated and upset, so I concluded that I am frustrated and upset quite often. So what are my problems and how can I overcome them?

Another theme I discovered is that I am constantly looking back, running away from negative problems and holding grudges. I certainly pretend that I have moved on and forgiven people. A friend of mine indicated that it makes me a victim and allows people to bully me – people mostly being family members. Perhaps writing this blog will allow me to vent, so I can truly forgive and forget and move on in my life.

So where I am right now? Thousands of miles away from everyone, including my family that I love and cherish. I need to work out where I want to be and how do I get there?

As for my weight loss goal – still on track and doing well.

Weight loss journey begins.

Day 1 (197  pounds)

Sunday 8th January

This is my very first blog and I don’t actually know what I am doing. I decided to write my weight loss journey down to try to keep myself accountable. Accountable to who, you may ask – well me, my conscience. In the past I’ve tried journaling, but kept it private and therefore didn’t keep it up. So my idea, create a blog, imagine the world is reading and perhaps I’ll feel like a contestant on the Biggest Loser challenge; determined, inspired and accountable.

My goal is to lose 50 pounds and keep it off. I aim to do this by counting calories and trying to keep under 1500 and I am using My Fitness Pal to monitor my progress. My goal is to try to eat more fresh fruit and vegetables. I also intend to do some exercise everyday. My first day went well and I fulfilled all my goals.

I went to see the film Passengers at the cinema. Despite my son informing me that all the reviews were negative, I really enjoyed the film and would recommend seeing it.

I know this isn’t the most exciting of posts, but I have begun. Tomorrow, I’ll share more about myself and how this time I will reach my destination.